The door was slammed with a resounding crash as George left the house, the echoes of his words of rage still ringing in Sams ear, as yet again George had left the relationship and the house.Sam huddled on the couch and pulled her legs up under her chin

And felt the tears welling up again as the bite of his words came back; he had abused her again in one of his notorious moods.

The tears could not be held back any longer and with a sob, they flowed down her cheeks in a endless stream, silently, to reach her chin and fall down onto her faded sweat shirt.

Rocking to and fro, Sam tried to lose herself in the motion, trying to shut out the tirade of abuse that George felt was his right to dish out whenever he had had a bad day or things went wrong.

Sam picked up a cushion and cuddled it close to her chest for support as she tried to focus, now what was it the master had told them down at the community hall??.

A person will try to dominate another to gain their energy and to feel in control of the person, “ a energy vampire “

Sam whispered to her self, George is a energy vampire, draining the energy of others to boost his own energy.

Yes, I remember now Sam murmured softly, each person has a different energy level some people seek to drain the energy of others to make themselves stronger, they pick on the vulnerable people that don’t know how to shield against it properly.

She shifted position on the couch and started to deep breath as the master had taught her to do. Deep even breathes and steady too.

Sam smiled faintly as the lessons started to come rushing back to her again, the lessons that the master had spent many, many free hours teaching the small class of self care students.

Lessons in breathing and shielding energy and focussing, how to feel and use the energy inside them and the boundless energy that existed around them in nature and the world.

Breath in through the mouth into the pit of the stomach, filling the stomach and then the chest and see the light white filling you, then exhale evenly, see the stress and tension being drawn out of you as the breath leaves your body.

Feel your body be filled from toes to top of the head with light and energy, feel the rush til you feel like you are going to explode, child, til the energy of light and love is you totally, he had said.

Sam shut her eyes and in her minds eye, saw the dark neg energy leaving her with each deep, cleansing breath she took, like a black mist, going out to the universe where it would be used and transformed, able to do no harm to anybody.

Sam felt the filling of light energy rushing into her body, her toes tingling as the energy flooded her with warmth and peace, She laughed as her body swam in the blissful warmth of light.

Then it happened, Sam’s mind filled with all the colours of the rainbow as her head cleared and her mind focussed again.

The deep red of the root charka, orange of the sacral charka

Yellow of the solar plexus charka, Sam feel the power and strength of the light filling her charkas, clearing them and flowing thought them, the bright green of the heart charka, and with a thud, her chest felt like a great weight had lifted and Sam felt so light again.

The light blue of the throat charka was next then up into the third eye charka, where the colour of violet shone and finally the top of her head where the crown charka filled with purple energy.

To Sam now, the room was gone the fight forgotten, and the world was like a distant memory to her, she is not there anymore.

Like a deep fire, the energy had roared through her, burning away the dragging weight of the negative energy and the blocks she had felt inside of her the last couple of weeks.

Sam was a glowing orb of energy and light, glowing and peaceful, her cat sat on the couch beside her purring as it felt the love and warmth flowing out and filling the room, hugging the cat and sweeping clean the atmosphere of the small flat.

In Sam’s mind, she could see the colours flowing through her body

Like a rainbow of blending hues, absolute peace and happiness inside her, a smile upon her face.

As she floated in this sea, Sam heard a soft voice speak,

Yes, child, release, flow, open the door, Sam giggled in herself and with a deep breath, pushed the energy out through he crown charka and the heavens opened and filled her totally.

Sam opened her eyes to see the figure standing silent and still, watching her with sparkling grey eyes, shining out of a weathered and worn face, his smile, one of welcoming warmth and friendship.

Sam felt no fear from this man, instead, feeling drawn to him like a daughter to a loving father, she smiled back feeling the energy pour out of her into the room, causing the room to brighten.

Sam noticed the staff, he held in his hand, made of a single branch of an oak tree, a globe of pulsing energy topped it

And yet a few small twigs with leaves were growing out of the top of the staff, adding a touch of life to the staff.

His cloaks of dark velvet were covered in dust as if he had walked many long and wandering roads for many years and yet they didn’t really seem that worn or tatty, just a bit faded and battered, sitting on him comfortably, the hood covering his head.

Though, his lips didn’t utter a sound, Sam hear the soft Gaelic lilt in his voice as he spoke to her, hearing the words in her head, rather than in her ears, telepathic, she though to herself and heard the answer, yes, child, telepathy, as you know it, but in the spirit realm, it is how we communicate.

Sam smiled wider, and thought to her, he belongs in nature, not in this flat, and again she heard the answer in her head, child, make it so, let it be as you wish it to be.

Sam let a image of a nature scene form in her head, in her mind and saw the energy in it flowing around and around, make it so, he said, thought and with that, she stepped into the image.

Standing on the green grass, looked around this New World,

Trees, flowers, sky, bird’s animals and water, like a walk in the park on a summer’s day, Sam thought.

Yes, Sam, like a walk in the park, the cloaked man stood a scant 6 feet away from her, looking out across the vast land around them, but this is a place of your creating, child, this is your place.

This is where, your body mind and spirit energy is one, where your dreams come be real, this is the physical, spiritual nexus

The man motioned behind her and Sam turned to see a doorway through which, she could see her body seated on the couch, surrounded by energy and light, that is the physical world.

Here, you are where that world and that spiritual meet and become one with each other, Sam, then motioning again, he pointed out a doorway, with dust and cobwebs, that is the past, Sam, this is the present, and pointing again to a set of new doors, that were identical in every way, there is your future, Sam, many doors for many directions that you choose to travel each door a new path.

Sam brushed her long blonde hair back from her face with her hand, so where we stand in the present???,

Yes, in the physical world of time, this is the present, that old dusty doorway is the past, where you lived and dreamed, and grew up and live and died, many times, it is through that doorway, that your past lives lay.

Taking Sams hand, they walked across the grass to the old door and stopped in front of it. Covered in ancient markings and etchings, it gave no clue to what lay behind it.

Can I open it, Sam asked, Yes, you can, you can unlock the memories of the past, for this is the door of your past lives and memories, by unlocking and opening the door here in the spiritual realm, you also unlock the forgotten and buried memories is your mind in the physical world today, Sam.

Now reach out and open the door,

Sam placed her hand upon the door and gentle pushed against it

The great door swung open easily and quietly, to reveal

What looked to be a great Black Sea, with coloured lines and dots stretching far into the distance.

Sam looked at the scene and raised her eyebrows, ok, I'm a blonde, just what the hang am I looking at, please???,

The cloaked man smiled, the lines are the paths you have walked in past lives, the different colours are that of you and your parts of you, the others in your soul group, some times, they run together.

That is when you have met in the past, when they run single, you didn’t meet up.

The dots are the lives you have lived, some are bright, where, you lived fully and you learnt all lessons and fulfilled all the goals of that life, some are just glowing, that is where you tried but did not succeed in that life, and some are pulsing, that is because something happened in that life, that has changed the flow of energy and the way you lived in that life and sometimes, it has caused other life paths to be unfulfilled and full of problems.

sometimes, in lives, this doorway is open and sometimes shut

When it is open, you have access to the past, when it is shut you do not, it is time for the door to be opened and so spirit guided me to you, child, to help you to open up and step forth.

Who am I? I am an essence of you Sam, your higher self.

Yes Sam, you are both male and female as your higher self, for the higher self is one of true balance, and in the past lives, you have lived as male and female, to learn lessons.

Sam giggled at that, and covered her mouth with her hand, sorry, but was I like George? Yes, Sam you were, in each life, we lived as different kinds of people to learn different lessons and grow.

A warrior in one life may come back as a peaceful man of god is another life, a man who doesn’t like children may come back as a mother of many children in the next life and that is how we learn the many lessons of the physical world.

Sam turned and looked at the many doors of the future paths and asked why so many, why not one?

Sam the next step in your life may open one of the doors or it may open 3 of them, some may not open at all.

When you return to yourself, you can do four things,

ONE lives in the past and never face up to today.

TWO live life but never accept this happening and forget it

THREE live life and be happy with the here and now, not changing

FOUR live life and travel further along this spiritual journey.

For each decision, a door will open and you will travel down that path, each day have new doors, each choice has new doors

Everything you do can either open or shut a door, think wisely before you act, is the action or thought the right for the time?

This place where you stand now, Sam, is your place,

You can travel from here to anywhere, this is where your dreams

Become real and true to you, this place is in your head and in the spiritual realm too,

Hold out your hand, Sam obeyed quietly, rasing up her hand to her higher self, now, he spoke softly, you love roses, can you see the rose in your hand? Sam looked at her higher self, and thought rose in my hand, and it appeared, a perfectly formed single rose, with tightly wrapped blood red petals.

Anything you desire or wish this place to be, it shall be

Anything you desire or wish to be, you can be

Sam? The voice tugged at her thoughts, Sam looked up at her higher self, you have many lessons to learn, and you have guides to help you and they are here to help guide and lead you,

Advise and help you, they are your spirit guides, child

Sam looked around as people appeared around her, children, adults, many races, creeds, and from many different times and centuries, all spirit guides, who had learnt lessons and now come forth to guide Sam in this life.

Sam turned back to her higher self and smiled, this is so awesome

I feel so loved and cared for now, I don’t feel so lonely anymore

Hugs and caring words flowed from Sam’s guides as Sam opened up to the love of the spiritual realm, unconditional love.

This is your love Sam, forever; you will always be loved for you,

As you and you can love with this love too, just let it flow.

What about George? Sam asked, how could I stop him hurting me again by taking my energy from me?

The answer came simply, love Sam, love him as himself, as a person, love can overcome any heart, if the open heart is open,

The person will open up, if the heart is closed, the person will close up, when George attacks you, speak in love and kindness back

Don’t not accept his abuse as your burden, let him carry it.

And shield yourself with positive thoughts and light, wrap yourself in the light of love and warmth, and surround him with the same

Some people will run and some will stay, some will react and some will go quiet, some will seek to drain you and some will seek

To share energy with you, each person is a lesson to teach and learn from, share freely with all and with an open mind.

Sam smiled I understand that I will learn by trying and using my energy in the right way, I have learnt so much now, and I understand now, that simple lessons and simple words can

Teach so much to an open heart and mind.

But how do I get back to my body again?

Sams higher self smiled at her and said, see your body and wish to return home again, simple as that, it is easier to go home than it is to leave home, child.

George slammed the door as he stormed into the lounge and looked at Sam, where's my damm tea, he roared, Sam looked at George and spoke, your tea is not cooked, George, because I am not your slave, or maid or servant, George, you can start to look after yourself now, I will help if you wish to learn, but I am too busy to run around after you now. I am going to enjoy my life

You can share it or not, I give you this choice.

George laughed and replied, you are nothing but a no hoper, girl

Without me, you are nothing, useless and hopeless.

Sam smiled and said, ok you feel that way about me, then I see no reason to stay with you George, I love you but you do not feel the same about me, so I will leave now, I love you George.

George looked at Sam and saw the light in her eyes and noticed she was not bowing down anymore and backing away,

Instead she was talking with him and speaking quietly

And calmly.

George said but but but but but. Sam just looked at him and said no buts, George, if you love me, we can sort things out and work through a few changes, together, George, together

George took one look at Sam and said how can we change our lives, Hun, for the better? Together??, sit down George, Sam said

3 years later, they said I do, at their wedding